One fried Youtiao; Two eggs

Live from Sydney. I just finished my first ever law exam and the first lesson learnt was that "Mina, Never Ever Ever Never trust your bleeding memory!" I jotted down a HD extra mark point on my answer plan, but heavens forbade, I forgot to put it on even though I wrote it down on the plan and constantly, I mean, CONSTANTLY, referred back to it. You tell me how I missed it?! Ok, two areas to be improved on: 1. writing with hands (HANDS, i mean not fingers!); 2. write a practice question from beginning to end in time (yea, I'm screwed if I rattle as much as I do here). But right now allow me to bring my exam-mode hypertension back to normal by rattling with my fingers.

By now you should've know that I have a habit of talking about my dreams. The other day, I dreamt of my dad being bullied by me. Blood was oozing out of his skin and couldn't coagulate because of his diabetes. So that was my dream, alright. I don't want to hide that in fact when I was growing up the "love motivated" smacks on my back was a norm and occasionally I got beaten for wandering off with mates after school and not coming home on time. So there was that violence in my psyche and I'm not surprised that I let it loose and retaliated him in my dream (in my dream only, thankfully). I had that dream with hatred, loath and anger...And I vividly remembered these emotions when I woke up. My relationship with dad was hitting the lowest recently. So I guess I was only mildly surprised, but didn't feel bad about the dream after all.

The other day, Wei, my hubby said that he was going to make me “必胜饭” (Bi Sheng Fan), a Japanese dish of chicken katsudon, seaweed and egg. Bi Sheng Fan apparently is a superstitious dish which once you eat you'll succeed in exams. Maybe, you remember the strip of white cloth Japanese binds to their forehead with two red chinese characters written on when they are agitating for something. The characters are "Bi Sheng" meaning "success assured". (Stop wandering off the track, Mina!). Ok, so I felt so loved and my heart was so warmed by Wei's offer and I went on to kiss him and thank him for thinking of doing that. Then it struck me that dad used to make one fried Youtiao (noodle stick) and two boiled eggs for me on my exam mornings (lol...i sound like an exam pro). So he said that put together, a stick and 2 eggs look like 100. 100! I was not that good. But I did tend to do well in my exams then. I remember his slightly bent back when he busied about in the kitchen. He always got up way before me and gave me a big breakfast even not on exam days. It mad me sad that I don't get to eat dad's 1.0.0. this time (I feel like crying even as I'm writing this). How can I completely reject or hate him just because of one or two of his weaknesses. Nobody is error free.

Even though it's still going to be difficult for me to communicate with dad, I will not bear a grudge. You see, I'm a forgetful person. But with a little memory aid from Bishengfan, I remembered 1.o.o and all the love dad put in it for me. I guess this time I'll write it down in my heart somewhere and refer back to it constantly, oh yea, I mean CONSTANTLY.