what do I do now?

It's been a sinking past few weeks. I stopped calling my parents. Nothing good seemed to be happening before Christmas. Luckily, Christmas is of no importance to us so we are coping "well".

We are trying to push things forward and stay busy all the time. Doing the flooring was definitely not the best idea, but its topsy-turvyness somehow saved us falling into depression.

As for myself, I don't know what I'm going to do. I regret for having not taken a fulltime study load. Now, I have a hard choice to make. Perhaps, I should treat it all with abandonment.

Study and Write - really, just study until I drop and write until the last drop of ink dries on the paper.

It is thundering outside after a gloomy day. Or it might be a plane, or even a UFO that is going to blow the earth apart.

Then all the issues will cease to worry us.