Talking

Yesterday, I met this wonderful Shandong girl whom I hired as my tutor. She was the first person I had met since uni years that made me feel like talking so much. And I did talk incessantly that this morning I woke up with a hoarse voice!!!

Whilst an encounter like this is so rare and precious, it holds me in fear. It is long-awaited, fragile and transient. It is so tempting that I might let go of my solitude in exchange of a committed friendship.

This is how I realize that I actually like a steady, uneventful, comfortable but distant friendship. It is torlerant and forgiving. It accommodates my timdity and my frequent needs of retreating back into hermittage. It is there and not there.